I'M FALLING

I can’t explain why I feel this way

I denied this feeling for so long

I try to hide what I really feel for you

I am afraid your love for me is not true

I try to run away from you

Try to forget everything about you

But feeling is getting stronger

Every day is getting harder

I’m trying to get over you

But I end up loving you

When this feeling fade?

When will I stop loving you?

I cannot forced my heart

It just breaking me apart

No matter what I do

Even I run away from you

My heart beats for you

And I’m falling for you

THE SHADOWS

The shadow of myself hiding inside of me

Darkness is all I can see

Pain and misery deep inside of me

Sadness killing every pieces of me

I remain strong for the love I fight

The feelings I feel I can’t fight

In the sky the clouds are gray

Giving darkness to a lonely day

Stars never shine anymore

Even moonlight can’t give light no more

I am the shadow hiding inside

You cannot see me when I hide

You will never know

When my shadows will show

From then you will know

My love will show…

I AM WHAT I AM

Dream can come true
Love never lies
Understand your heart
It will beat again
It will beat to whom it should belong
From a distance my heart beats too
Fight for the love that is unknown
If only I can make you my own
Then I will make it on my own
Questioning my feelings
Thinking everything is a lie
If you knew all along who really I am
Who I am hiding in this face
Tell me why you have to love me
But then deceive me
You love me for so long
Fight for me till you die
But you never know what you are fighting for
Feeling you are alone
I try to reach your hand
But your hand reaching other side
I try to let out my feelings
Still you doubted it
You are in my heart since you love me
But this heart was rip apart
By lies, tears and pain
I know how long you love me
But you don't know how long I keep you
You keep searching for me
But you search for the wrong one
Keep on asking questions
Still you know the answer
The answer is in your heart
But you refused to believe
You said I am your love
But you are looking for the other me
You think you're always the one hurting
But you never know what migth hurt me
You cry inside and never show
But you don't feel my pain
You are blind to see
I was trying to be me
But all those years you knew what I am to you
You should see how much I care to you
You have been listening for what you hear
But you never stick for what you believe
Instead your pretend and make believe.

YOU CANNOT LOSE WHAT YOU NEVER HAD

You dream of love you wanted

Even you know you are taking for granted

You want him to be yours

And surrender everything that is yours

You want him to be your own

Even to you he is unknown

You try to make him fall

But it’s you who always fall

You try to get his love

Even hurting the one he love

But all you can get is pain

And your life put in vain

You cannot hide the tears

Because it shows all your fears

To you he is everything

Even you can get nothing

You thought you win his heart

But you realized it was torn apart

You try to forget him

But you end up longing for him

You can’t find your way

Trying to get away

But you find yourself falling even more

You can’t stop to love him more

Lesson you learn in love

You cannot forced someone we love

A heart can learn to love on its own

You can find someone you can call your own

You cannot have all the things you want

Because you cannot lose what you never had

THE WAY WE ALWAYS DREAM

To hold you close to me is all I want to do, to keep you warm with my loving arms, to keep you safe from any harm and to love you in a special way I can. I want to feel your heart beat close to mine and feel the love you have inside your heart. I just want to love you with all my heart, with all my soul and strength. As long you have my heart and it’s you I love, I will be strong and hold on for our dreams. Soon I know that you and I will find a way for us to be together just like the way we always dream...

ONCE IN A LIFETIME

Once in a lifetime

Two hearts will meet

In a right time and place

They were share one love, one dream

Two hearts live in different world

But beat as one soul

Together they will build a love

A love they will share forever

Two hearts, beating together

Giving strength to each other

Two hearts never collide

When it its burning inside

The fire they made will be their light

For the love they fight…

THE BEGINNING

 
This is not the end, but the beginning
The beginning of new chapter of my life
The beginning of new love
Many lies, many tears, many pain
Killing my soul one by one
I did everything I could
To live and not to die
I tell the world who really I am
But no one stand for their belief
My heart become a lost soul
I become the victim beyond my innocence
I keep on running to hide
Save my life from misery
In the end, still I am lost
Nowhere to go, can't find my way
I am tired running from pain
I am tired running from judgment
Maybe i am hiding in my shell
To protect myself but I am not scared
I know what I want to become
And that's what I am...

WHO I AM TO YOU IS UNKNOWN

Maybe our path will cross
But you never know that is me
Maybe you will know, maybe not
But only the beat of your heart knows
Who I am to you, is unknown
But it was just our heart feels
What is real and not?
A Heart never lies, but heart can only hide
Feelings cannot be saying by words
By it can be show by actions
The beat of the heart is more than feelings
It will never fade when the feelings remain...

UNKNOWN

I live in a darkness
In a world of sadness
I keep on running to be alive
My world just collide
I am living in a world of lies
But love inside me never dies
I keep on looking for my heart
To find my soul and not to torn apart
I see the beauty of life in a dream
But it was not like what it seems
Life is unfair
You better be prepare
I will not tell you who I am
Until you show me who you are
I am not living to hide
But I'm living because I exist
Better to be unknown who really I am
Than to know who I am really not...